“Write about the pleasure writing brings and how writing is important to me.”
I love to write. I have no idea why I just do. It makes me feel good to be able to put my thoughts on paper in such a way that other people can understand and enjoy them. I guess that is partly because I have such a chaotic and wandering mind. My mind naturally jumps form one subject to the next quite often and my powers of association are nothing less than superhuman. So to order those thoughts and put them down and have them understood brings me joy.
I have learned that the language and tone of my writings do not resemble my speech at all. Being dyslexic and bipolar I speak from a very disjointed emotional place in my head. My thoughts often crash together in an effort to pass the gate of my mouth. It is common that I misspeak what I mean and have been known to say complete sentences inside out and backwards. While even I am amused by this at times it does not a great communicator make. But on paper magick happens!
On paper my words flow through me in a gentle rush of creative beauty and urgency. When I write or type my thoughts seem almost, ordered. Sentences become clear and while I still can’t spell to save my life word order and grammar appear out of thin air to turn my thoughts into comprehensive droplets of knowledge. Metaphors and analogies, quips and wit, all become apart of my writing identity. While I love speaking, especially public speaking I have to think slowly and carefully to speak intelligibly to be understood. But on paper, I already am a writer.
Gratitude. Am I grateful for this “gift”? That I have not decided. I think I should be but I want something to come of it. I want my writing to have a purpose, without purpose these are nothing more than journal entries. While that is good and fine for some it feels like I am selling myself and my talents short if I don’t try for more. Talents are meant to be used, for others, for the greater good, etc. etc. That is what I want and when I can do that then I will know I have a gift.